Sunday, August 8, 2010

Blog writing

I used to write every personal thing of myself in my msn space but msn announced that such service will be withdrawn, and I find that I will feel sad to let all those blog entries gone, somehow I am just so fond of reading what have been written previously.

Okay, from now onwards, will use this blog, put everything into here where it used to be meant for travel stuff only.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Overly Delayed updates .........

Back to home. Committed to something (Besides some serious stuff, social meetings, days spent with my beloved family, I need to devote some time for daydreaming). I should have recorded down my travel in a nice, orderly manner for future reminiscence but I am committed to something right now. Never mind, my memory is very good in taking things meant to be remembered. Never mind, travel is something very personal, along the journey, only I know how the place I visited and the person I met meant to me. People you’ve met, places you’ve visited and all the encounters you’ve had made up your personal travel log which is a unique one.

When I have no time to record things in words, when I couldn't catch the scenes into my camera, I knew I have stored them in my mind.

....................................until mid-2011.

当我没时间用文字记录旅程,当我来不及用照相机摄景捕影,我知道我已经将所有的这些烙印在脑海了。

A Walk, a Talk, a Thought





In a fast-paced city, rarely do we have a chance to slow down and look into ourselves from within.

Being away from the places I am familiar with to New Zealand, it means a lot to me. Well, this is the first European country I’ve been to, and when you are plumped into a new place, that implies a certain degree of unlearning about the practicability of one’s own culture, letting go of the social status, material possession, a stuck relationship or situation when you are in your own country. You are just about to start a new journey and to learn and view the world from a different perspective. It can be insightful yet exciting!

Throughout my 6-months working holiday in New Zealand, I spent the most of my time in Franz Josef for about 4 months. Why I was here for that long? Haha, I’ve never planned for anything and it just happened that I have a “special connection” with this place? I was blown to here and stayed till mid autumn.

I love to walk around Franz Josef. Sometimes, I walked alone, sometimes, with a friend. When I am alone, I usually indulged myself in gazing at the glacier, feeling the natural surrounding, the gentle breeze, and then I would have a pleasing conversation to myself. I walked with my preferred pace and dreamt about the desired.

When I was with a friend, I did enjoy the way we walked together and although some people just don’t talk much to you, but you would cherish the chance to walk alongside with someone and appreciate this acquaintance.

Shan is the Hong Kong girl whom I had most of the non-solitary walks with in Franz Josef. She is few years older than me and she is about to be a full-time roamer. We talked about life, love, the interpersonal relationship we had in the situational drama of Franz Josef Scenic Hotel, etc while walking along the farm road behind our lodge that gives us another stunning view of glacial mountains.

I remember how we talked about love, I mean the romantic relationship of a couple. There is a saying, there are two things a couple should do before they decide to tie the knot: one is to cohabit, to stay together, the second is to travel together. One is to test the couple in dealing with the certainty (seeing your mate’s unchanged temperament) in life while the other is to test their ability to face the uncertainties together in life.

To stay together, you get to know each other better in term of his or her character, predisposition of likes and dislikes in daily activities, his or her habit and so on. It’s not merely about having temporal fun while hanging out with him or her nor the first infatuated impression when meeting him or her. To travel together, it is another challenge to face. As the relationship proceeds, there might be some unexpected obstacles that happen. If those happen, are you going to hold her hand still to tackle all the undesirable things? Will you be able to tolerate or compromise when she has severe disagreement with you? When both of you started to have different agenda and different destinations to go, will you two calm down and sort these out?

.................. I am 25, still enjoy being free and solitude is a state when I am most truthful to myself. People come in and out and pass me by, some stay silently for me, some leave unnoticed, my heart is drifting, so I am still a little uncertain :)

我喜欢离别 I like *Separation

I like separation, I like the intense feeling that developed only when you were about to leave. We only learnt to cherish each other at that moment.

我喜欢别离,因为唯有在离别之时,我们才会显得比过往更珍惜彼此。从来对离别之愁没有很深的感受,反倒是对那份离别时浓得化不开的情感感触极深。至于和你不怎么在乎的人的“离别”呢,呵呵,那何来离别之说?因为你们都貌合神离,本来就不曾实质上地在一起过。因此我真正喜欢的,是和自己在乎的人的离别。

那时候,离别之时,我们可能是比往常多话,更多了些以往不会轻易说出来的心底话;也可能,我们无言胜有言,只是默默地感受那离别的气氛,或是默默地望着对方,或是以拥抱来诉说千言万语;再可能,我们或许闻到了空气中的离别之愁,而为了化解那份伤感,不知是有意还是无意地拼命说些废话。不管怎么样,我们唯有到离别时才知道,原来我们之间的情谊是如此美好的,因此我有点舍不得你走,因此那一刻,我多么希望往后或许会和我疏于联络的你会一直过得好好的,心中突然有好多好多对你的祝福涌上来。

人是很奇怪的,平常和你一起吃喝玩乐都习惯了,和你一起聊个天花乱坠已是家常便饭,感觉日子一天一天这样,没什么特别,只有在你要走的时候,我才认清自己以后得从生活中将一部分的你给抽离的事实,虽然另一部分的你还是能够存在在我思念的记忆里,可我一想到我们要分开了,感觉就有点纠结,似乎因以前对你不够好而感到遗憾,又或者后悔来不及好好了解你。

或许以后我们会少了联系,而多了思念;也或许我们会少了联系,亦少了挂念而逐渐淡忘彼此;再或许我们会因思念而多了联系。不管怎么样,你我都知道,未来的路上,大家会遇到好多人,他们或许和我擦肩而过,或许在下一刻变成我的朋友或知己,一直陪伴我的身边人或许是那个新认识的他。而过往的你呢,在我心目中的地位或许因为这些人的出现而稍微有了变动,可我记忆中善良可爱的你从来没变过。

我还是很喜欢和怀念那一刻围绕在我们离别之时的浓浓情感。